Happy Rape Anniversary

So today I was crying a lot, and I didn’t know why. It’s been like this for days, actually. Really bad painful depression. Painful depression isn’t like normal depression. Painful depression makes me hurt all over. I feel it reach out from my chest.

d2e77c81508cfe8095fedb9bb45c4142_FotorIt’s like metal wires under my skin in my veins traveling down each of my limbs from my heart out.

I feel the metal travel. And it hurts my shoulders and my neck the worst. And my stomach.

I thought I was just regressing. I thought it was just me falling deeper and deeper into myself. I thought it was my sleeping habits. I thought my multiple sclerosis was the problem.

 

And then I remembered.

And then I remembered.

And everything made sense.

Happy Rape Anniversary Week to me.

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23 thoughts on “Happy Rape Anniversary

      1. I shall try. It’s good I identified the problem. Now that I know why my body was reacting this way, I actually feel better. I didn’t wake up with depression. And I called my mom to stay over and go to bed the same time as me. She talked with me a little bit. I felt safer.
        I slept 14 hours. I might go back to bed. I’m just tired. But not sad. I think my body is healing and also catching up on sleep.

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    1. Thank you. I’m glad I identified my trigger. Now that I have I feel emotionally better. I didnt wake up today in painful depression. I have anxiety but not out of control anxiety. This is the first time in what feels like forever.

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    1. I actually can’t believe I posted this. I am reading it now and am crying a little. It’s also my most viewed post of today so far. Now a lot of people know. I hope it connected with some people and made them feel less alone.

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