I’m A Chemical Fuck Up, a poem by Drem

Another attempt at a poem. The stars aren’t aligned with me. Haven’t been for awhile now. I shall keep trying to attain what I have lost.

The title reminds me of My Chemical Romance. Was a HUGE fan of them. Went to 11 of their shows. I only liked their first 2 albums (Bullets and 3 Cheers). Then one sad song off their 3rd. After that, nothing. They are broken up now. Gerard, what are you doing pretending you are a British pop artist?  My goodness. But darling, I will always love you no matter what. You will – always – be beautiful- to – me- e-e-e-e.

 

If any of my readers find this interesting, let me know.

xoxo

Drem

 

 

I’m A Chemical Fuck Up, a poem by Drem

December 17, 2015

“Thoughts awaken.

They start to sort straight

to function.

But I’m broken.

Because when my eyes begin to open

my body is flushed

head to toe,

just try to touch

me.

I’m pure nausea-inducing

anxiety.

I feel faint laying right

in my own bed

from nothing,

for no damn good reason

I’m shaking.

And then I move.

And I hurt

in my ribs and in my gut

when I breathe.

And my hands,

when I open

and close them,

they are swollen

and are achy,

for no damn good reason.

I want more sleep.

But no, it’s too late

to calm

my nerves.

I’m depressed already.

I’m still in this body.

I was hoping

I wouldn’t

wake up in me.

But I’m in me.

I’m in me.

It’s already 8:30

in the morning.

Thoughts awaken.

They start to sort straight

to function.

But I’m broken.

Broken brain,

nerves,

hormones,

this is me.

Good morning!

My fucked up chemicals

sweetly say, “hello”

to this very lovely page

and to this very pretty ink,

and to you very-abled bodied boy

who fills me with jealousy.

You’ll never love me.”

 


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